new LIFE, new ME c;

heyy! kitut here ;D 

wahh. happy lerr dapat no.1 dlm kelas.

syukur alhamdulillah~

hope after this, more better laa sy punya result. 

amin ;)

bytheway, 27.08.2012 (10.45 p.m) 

i choose to let go of my BOYFIE.

sememangnya sy sayangg dia.

butt. ntah laa. sepa tahan kan kena buat gini?

sakit otakk ku memikirkannyaa. haha ;D

mula-mula tu hati rasa sakitt, sedih, kecewaaa.

and a little bit regret. sampai ada TEARS getting out nii. huh?

tapii it's okayyy. that's how life goes on.

kejap jalan, kejap larii and sometimes jatuh.

kejap hujan, kejap cerah and sometimes ada RAINBOW.

kejap di atas, kejap di bawah.

i know i can get someone that even better than HIM.

so, buat apa PENYESALAN?

i know someone out there love me, care me and like me for who i am.

so, goodbye to you dear EX-BOYFRIEND.

teda jodoh kita nii. hoohoo XD

sampai sini seja laa utk coretan kisahh sii kitut todayyy.

sampaii ketemu lagii.

assalammualaikum ;)

Member sii CURANKX'SETIA c;

I still remember the first day we met we were too shy to say much at all.

 it's funny to think back to that time because now we're having a ball.

 they say that true friendship is rare an adage that I believe to be true genuine friendship is something that I cherish.

 I am so lucky to have met you.

Our bind is extremely special, it is unique in it's own way that we have something irreplaceable, I love you more
each day.

We've been through so much together in so little time we've shared .

I will never forget all the moments that you've shown me how much you cared.

Friends are forever specially the bond that you and I posses, I love your fun-filled personality somehow you never fail to impress. 

If the world could use more people like you, it would certainly be a better place. I love everything about you, you are someone I could never replace.

You are everything to me, and more.

I could never express that enough life is such a treacherous journey, and without you it would be even more tough.

Our story will continue to grow with each passing day, because I trust that with you everything will always be ok. You are so dear to me you know, I will love you until the end.

I will always be there for you and you will always and forever be my best friend.

This is for you, my best friend.

The one person I can open my soul to, who can relate to me like no other.

Whom I can laugh with to no extents, whom I can cry with when times are tough, who can help me with the problems of my life.

I don't think you know what that means to me.

you have gone through so much pain and you still have time for me.

I love you for listening even when you may be dying inside.

I look up to you because you are strong, and caring and beautiful even though you don't think you are.

I hope you know that I will always here to listen your laugh and cry and help in all the ways that I can.

I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, without YOU. ♥

saya sangattlaa BINGUNGG ;'c

dear?
saya bingunggg ;'c
kau bgtau saya yg relationship kamu dlm pesbuk tu FAKE seja,
but, kau punya "FAKE GIRLFIE" often post yg dia sayangg kau.
kau cakapp kau sayangg saya but kau x buat apa-ii pun mau ksih prove kau punya wordsss.
sometimesss, saya tepikirrr.
mcmana kalo kamu memangg REAL couple?
mcmana kalo apa yg kau bgtau dgn saya tuu semua TIPU?
seriouslyyy? saya sayanggg kau sangat-ii.
tapii kau? ntah laaaaaa.
kadang-ii kau buat saya yakin dgn kau.
kadang-ii kau buat saya nda yakin dgn kau.
sakitt ba hatii. ;c
hmppp. up to you laaa.
saya sabarr seja tpi masalahnyaa HATII SAYA SAKITTTTT ;'/
kau buat ikutt suka hatii kau seja laa.
saya malas sua mau masukk campurr.
saya malas sua mau pkirr tu semua.
kalo saya nda berentii memikirr tu, sampaii bila-ii pun saya x tauu cerr yg sebenar-benarnyaaaaa.

so for now on, i've gotta go my own wayy.
assalammualaikum. </3

i loves each of our CONVERSATION.

time first date.

he asked me my FULL NAME.
dear: apa nama penuh kau aa?
saya: eih, panjangg. x payah laa kau tau.
dear: mestii ada SITI nii kan?
saya: aikk, manada!
dear: NURUL?
saya: bukan jg.
dear: jadii NUR?
saya: iyaaaaa.
dear: ba bagitau la.
saya: NUR ALLEY VARNEYSCA BT SAILITSON @ MOHD.ZULKIFLI
*** he stare ***
dear: huhh? SITI MAIMUNAH??
*** and i was like WHATT?! ==' ***


while he was holding my hand, he said to me.
dear: nda pena cucii kain kaaa? =='
*** nokotigoggg my heart! guna mesin basuh ba dearrrrr D; ***


the most momentt that i superb love was when he DIRECTLY hold my hand when crossing the road and said to me,
dear: saya masih sayangg kau lg. :)
*** iloveyou ROCK LEE <3 ***


sii dear marah kalo sy 'cucii mata' tgk otherr boyss.
sy senyum-ii seja laaaa :)
then, time kamii bejalan ada otherr girlss bejalan dpan sii dear.
and i CLOSED his eyes.
then, we LAUGH <3 :D


dearrr, i want you to know that there ain't any other guys can make me feel the way you did to me.
there aren't enough words in this entire world, that can truly explain just how much I LOVE YOU <3

LEE<3 ;)

when there was ME and YOU ;'/

it's funny when you find yourself looking from the outside.
i'm standing here but all i want is to be over there.
why did i let myself believe, miracles could happen?
cause now i have to pretend, that i don't really care.
i thought you were my fairy tale.
the dream when i'm not sleeping.
a wish upon a star, that's coming true.
but everybody else could tell, that i confused my feelings with the truth.
when there was ME and YOU.
i swore i knew the melody,
that i heard you singing.
and when you smile, you made me feel like i could sing along.
but then you went and change the words.
now my heart is empty.
i'm only left with used-to-be's and once upon a song.
now i know you're not my fairy tale.
and dreams are meant for sleeping.
and wishes on a star just don't come true.
and now even i can tell, that i confused my feelings with the truth.
because i liked the view.
when there was ME and YOU.
i can't believe that i could be so blind.
it's like you were floating while i was falling and i didn't mind.
BECAUSE I LIKE THE VIEW.
i thought you felt it too.
WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU </3

sii EX yang macam TAIK!!!

25-MARCH-2012

sii EX inbox.
he said to me:
EX; hye. long time no see!
saya: yoo! how r uu? (sepa jua mau SEE kau? apa yg sy replyyy nii? bodohsss ==')
EX; baik ba. kau pula? ehe.
saya: sihat ja. (buat apa laaa kau mau tau? ==')


19-MAY-2012
dia inbox lagii.
EX; hey, elly. apa khabar kau? rindu aku dgn kau tau. ehe.
saya: sihat ba. hmp ya lerrr tu. (apa rindu rinduu? ==')
EX; okeyy good. mm, iyabaa. miss aku dgn bekas syg aku. ehe. btw, apa number kau guna skrng?
saya: ohhh. ya lerrr tu. numb lama juga. kenapa? (damn. bodohssss! hell BEKAS SYG kau puiii ;/ )
EX; iya alley. kau ingat aku lupa kaa dgn bekas syg aku? hhu. IMPOSSIBLE tau. xpa laa if kau x pecaya. btw, seja tanya bb mau sms kau kan ^_*


** fuck off with the words IMPOSSIBLE.
i love you BEFORE, but now? hell NO!
why should i trust your shittt nonsense talk?!
ohh pelissssss! better takecare of your GIRLFIE.
i don't want to be the reason for your CRUSH later, BOYY.
stay matangg matangggg sampai kau tua teda gigiii laa! =='
WHO CARE?! perasan!
_|_ for you! c;

get outtt of my wayyyyyy.

you make me LOVE you c=

yes, i love you <3
you don't know how much i love you OR how much i really care.
you don't know how much i want you because all i can do is STARE.
though it hurts, i know i can get through cause i can get enough energy just by loving you.
i might say that i've moved on but i haven't.
i might say the PAIN has gone, but it hasn't.
you can hear me laugh OR see me smiling.
you wanna know why?
so that YOU wouldn't know it's you i'm missing.

it's you I LOVE.

LEE <3

I miss you. ;/

night is getting closer.
i hold up my jacket, listen to the wind.
my eyes getting wet, the sky says nothing but still i'm trying to find the answer.
dear god, why am i so alone?
why am i here with just this tears?
why?
there are times in my life where i'm just a girl who needs her boyfriend but he wasn't here today.
not even his heart.
it's hurting me :(
sometimes, someone comes into your life that changes everything.
raise the standards, makes you laugh and makes you feel like you.
there is something about him that you can't put into words.
and eventhough you're not with him, you don't want to let him go.
the first time i met you i didn't think that i would fall in love with you.
well, i just did.
and dear, i love you more than you ever knew!
just you, Mr.BikinPanas.
muaah! :*

LEE <3

why must we ended up like this? ;(

*** Being Alone is better than being addicted to Someone who can Leave yOu any time . . . ♥

when a guy break up with a girl and she begins to cry.

it's not because she's crying for the guy, not because she's upset.

she's crying because she's wondering what she done was wrong.

as if she wasn't good enough.

she's crying because she's going to miss the memories of being with him.

she's crying with what's left of her heart!






** i know i must learn to let go and learn to forget you.
but still, i miss you DEAR </3

Aramaii-tii at PAPAR.

behind the scene "Aramaii-tii at PAPAR"

saya tidurr petang jam 05.00 p.m time tuu.

then tebangun jam 6.00 p.m.

pastu saya onL.

tibatiba sii kakak menegur saya.

kakak: mau ikut pii sambut kaamatan sana papar ka?

saya: mau! sepa kita ikut?

kakak: dorang sii bonny(cousin)

saya: jam berapa jln?

kakak: nanti jam 7.00 p.m

**saya meningukk jam d laptop, almost 6.30 p.m sudah!*

apa lg. cepatcepat laa saya p besiappsiapp.

heyy, saya ada mandii okey! hahaha XD

pastu, jam 7.05 p.m gitu kami gerak.

kami ada 6 orang semua.

bonny, roger, billy, tazryn, kakak, and saya. XD

ndapyah cakap memangg penat.

++ lg peningg kepala naik kereta aa. =='

sii billy(cousin) duduk sebelah saya, mulut nda pandai diam.

roger(cousin) pendiam, tp kalo dia belawakk astaga LUCU! ;D

bonny(cousin) jadii DRIVER.

almost 8.00 p.m kamii sampaii sana.

saya makan, saya maiinmaiin, saya becerita, saya ketawaketawa.

10.40 p.m cousin saya bawa pulangg.

roger dgn sii billy stayy PAPAR.

4 orang seja kamii pulang.

then, time ontheway pulang tuu. sii bonny jd gentleman.

tibatiba seja ni baa, tehantukk kali kepala kau kan? haha XD
11.30 p.m singgah kedaii. tazryn, thanks for the BURGER KING.

12.15 gitu sampaii rumah. :D

**time di PAPAR**

saya ada jengukk acc girlfiee "fake" dia kunun.

and i saw something yg bikin sakit hatii.

then, I tried my bestt to enjoyy those sambutan kaamatan.

kalau teda cousin cousin saya, confirm saya "HUJAN" XD

but then i realized, he didn't worth it at all. 

thanksss DEAR :)

saya tidak tauuuu. :'/

aih, ni kalii la sy bilank.

knpa bh kau ni x pandai faham bahasa?

sy x mau kau tunggu smpai sy single balik.

carii la bh ppuan laiin.

banyak lg ppuan d luar sana tuuu.

yg lagii cantikk + cute darii sy!

jgn paksa sy.

nantii sy bencii kau.

cukup kau faham sy sudah BERPUNYA.

jgn mengharapppp!

kenapa bh kau buat sy mcmnii?

tolongglaaa ;/

sayaa sayangg dia baaa.

tolonggg faham.

jgn mau menyibukkk, kau tau kaa?

gaya kau tu buat sy bencii kau.

saya sayanggg "L" sayaaa. <3

kau JANTAN. jgn lg kau kacau sy!

tolongggggglaaaaaaa okey! sy harapp sangat sangatt kau fahammm (T.T)